Sting

A picture and hurt so much. Damn it Elvis you had to post it -___________-;;
I'm not surprised that I'm not over Jon. But its awkward for me to talk to him at school. I try to act like I think of him as just a friend. But I can't show my feelings, I can't shout to the world that I like him. its been 4 months and nothing has changed. I should move on, but I can't, I'm too stubborn. Why cant I just accept the fact that he is way up there, and I'm this skinny ant in the grass that doesn't know how to do any shit. There is so many people out there, and I'm just another inferior fish in the sea. It hurts too much. I mean, just right now my mom barged in my room and told me I stole her comb, which i have no reason to. I have two brush next to me, why would i take her ancient comb? So i yelled at her. I'm in such a down mood right now. Then after, or you can say currently, I teared up and cried. Why? I don't really know for sure. I skipped tryouts today because I had to go to the dentist. Now tomorrow I have to skip again for Orthodontist. Damn it. I'm stupid for thinking I can stand out in the crowd of everyone else to him. What was I thinking. How would he even react when he finds out that I liked him ever since I met him? I don't know. Someone is probably going to read this someday and gossip it. Its my blog, rawr.. I don't care, or at least don't currently care. Just as long as he doesn't treat me like nothing. Cause I already feel that way.