Roadkill

Ack !
Its all over me !
The flashbacks
the memories are coming back !
i hate look at it !
i hate thinking it !
but i cant get it off my mind
and its killing me !
Seeing all these images
these .. happy images
i feel different.
i'm not part of it.
i'm not one of them
i'm an outsider.
that group always have fun
but me, i'm just an extra.
i'll never be whole.
it will just be me and myself.
Making my decision to like someone
what a horrible mistake !
i mean , come on !
trisha ? what a joke !
trisha liking a guy, what a good example of ROFL.
ugh.
well.
i basically give up.
life was better when i didnt have any crushes.
when life hands you apples,
throw it away.
cause one day it will spoil
and when it spoils, it kills you.
but like adam and eve,
i cant forget and restart.


love ?
wtfuck is love.